#JustMe

Jul 25, 2025
25 min read

Updated: Jan 13

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Who even am I?

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When I landed on Earth, I was just this little bundle of potential. Taking my first breath kicked off my journey as a daughter, which really shaped my early days. But as I got older, I figured out that being a daughter was just one part of who I was becoming.

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Anxiety Invoking

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As I got older, I figured out I was balancing a bunch of different roles—like being a friend, student, teammate, and professional. Each one came with its own set of duties, expectations, and challenges, so I had to quickly adjust and change my mindset every day.

## The Role of a Friend

As a friend, I'm here to really support you, be there when you need me, listen, and cheer you on when you succeed. It's all about being empathetic, having open chats, and really getting each other's struggles. Real friendship means sharing the highs and lows of life, being there for comfort during the rough patches, and celebrating growth and milestones together.

## The Journey of a Student

Being a student meant taking in loads of info, getting the hang of new ideas, and hitting some pretty high expectations, so I had to be disciplined and dedicated. This journey taught me how to manage my time, prioritize what's important, and set goals. I got the hang of breaking projects into smaller, doable tasks, which helped me out both in school and at work. Working on group projects showed me how awesome diverse perspectives and teamwork can be, setting me up for future responsibilities.

## Embracing Teamwork

Joining a team made life way more exciting by getting me into collaboration, appreciating different perspectives, and chasing common goals in all sorts of situations. I discovered how awesome teamwork can be, why clear communication matters, and how stepping out of my comfort zone is valuable. Trusting others and bringing my skills to the table led to more success than going solo, and the bonds we formed often turned into lasting friendships and a real sense of belonging.

## Navigating Professional Life

Jumping into the working world was a whirlwind, full of big responsibilities and the challenge of juggling my own goals with what my boss and coworkers expected. I had to get used to the fast pace, the office vibe, and building professional relationships. Every job pushed me to learn new skills and keep up with continuous learning. My career was always changing, so I had to keep adapting and looking for new things to learn. Each role came with opportunities to grow, pushing me to expand my abilities and rise to the challenges.

## The Weight of Responsibilities

I figured out how important it is to be adaptable and resilient while juggling a bunch of responsibilities. Even when I felt overwhelmed, I kept things balanced by making adjustments as needed. The ups and downs were key in shaping who I am and boosting my understanding of the world.

## Reflection and Growth

Looking back on my journey, I realize that every role I took on helped me understand myself and my place in the world better. Juggling these roles taught me empathy, responsibility, and how crucial it is to keep things balanced. I came to value the diversity in both my roles and relationships. Each experience, whether good or bad, broadened my perspective, made my interactions more meaningful, and shaped how I tackle challenges.

## Embracing Future Opportunities

As I keep growing and changing, I hold onto these lessons, ready for whatever new challenges and opportunities come my way. Every role I dive into is a chance to grow and learn, and the different hats I wear show my journey and how everything in life is connected. Each new chapter is a chance to learn and evolve, and I'm excited to welcome what's next with an open heart and curious mind. My life is a mix of all sorts of experiences, and I'm looking forward to seeing how it all plays out.

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Finding My True Self

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Hey there! Welcome to my blog, where I share stories about personal growth through different roles and experiences. I chat about the ups and downs, trying to figure out who we are beyond just labels and connect with others on similar journeys.

Here, we’re all about having real talks about life's highs and lows, creating a space where openness and support can flourish. By sharing our vulnerabilities, we build a safe and genuine environment.

Join me as we explore identity and spark some self-reflection. Each post is an invite to chat and connect, helping us all get a better grasp of what it means to be human. Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments!

Let's celebrate our diverse experiences, learn from each other, and enhance our journey for connection.

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Here's a rundown of all the different hats I wear every day. Brace yourself, it’s quite a list (sometimes it overwhelms me too, but it just shows how varied my life is).

Wife - This role is like a full-time job, filled with responsibilities that need constant love, patience, and dedication. Balancing my partner's needs with mine can be tough, but it's also super rewarding.
Mom - Being a mom is a 24/7 gig that involves everything from school runs and homework to late-night cuddles and early wake-ups, all while teaching my kids important life lessons.
Nurse (mommy nurse) - Besides my job, I’m the family nurse, handling everything from first aid to emotional support during tough times.
Nurse (professional) - I work as a hospice nurse, taking care of patients and supporting their families.
Daughter - I aim to have a bond with my parents, offering them care and companionship as they get older.
Daughter-in-law - This role involves building relationships with my in-laws and keeping the family peace.
Sister - As a sister with two younger siblings, I’m their celebrating their wins and helping through life's hurdles.
Step Daughter - I navigate the blended family scene, connecting with my step-parents and adapting to these unique relationships.
Step Sister - With three step-sisters and two step-brothers, I manage a big family network, each relationship having its own challenges and joys.
Aunt - I love being an aunt to five nephews and one niece, being the fun and supportive figure in their lives.
Cousin - I have two first cousins, one nearby and one who’s moved away. My kids call the local cousin "uncle," while the other one has started his own family, far away.
Chauffeur - Driving my kids to their activities and appointments is a big part of my day, juggling multiple schedules.
Chef - I like cooking, but meal planning and catering to everyone’s tastes can be exhausting.
Maid - Keeping the house clean and organized feels endless, but it’s key to a comfy home.
Mediator - I often step in to resolve family conflicts, helping everyone understand each other better.
Friend - Keeping up with friends is vital for my sanity, providing a support network and social time amidst the chaos.
Confidant - I’m the go-to listener for many, offering a safe space for friends and family to share their thoughts.
Book Lover - I love reading, as it fuels my imagination and offers an escape into new worlds.
Music Lover - Music is a big part of my life, providing both a daily soundtrack and comfort during tough times.
Chocolate Lover - I’m a self-confessed sugarholic, with chocolate as my ultimate weakness. It’s a little joy I treasure.
Cat Mom - I proudly care for two cats at home, and my office has one too.
Dog Mom - Alongside my cats, I have two dogs who add joy and energy to our home.
Coach - I coach kids' softball, teaching them the game and life skills like teamwork and resilience.
Writer - Writing lets me express myself and connect with others through my words.
Teacher - As a homeschooling parent, I create lessons and activities tailored to my youngest daughter's learning style.
Pothead - I enjoy cannabis to unwind and relax after a long day, which helps my overall well-being.
Lover of the Great Outdoors - I’d love to spend most of my life outdoors. The idea of RV living and traveling everywhere is super appealing to me.
Traveler - I’m eager to explore new places, seeking adventures that broaden my horizons.
Empath - My empathetic nature helps me connect deeply with others, often driving my desire to support those around me.

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No one truly understands me

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People usually just see the surface of who I am, shaped by their own biases, and it makes me feel like an iceberg with a lot hidden underneath. As a nurse, I stay professional and empathetic, focusing on taking care of patients, which means I don’t have much time to connect personally with coworkers. This work-centered vibe can sometimes hide who I really am and what I’m passionate about. It's important to balance work and personal life because I have my own dreams and fears that I want to be noticed. This can make me feel lonely since I crave deeper connections beyond just surface-level chats. The challenge is finding places where I can be myself without being judged, trying to mix my work, public, and private lives in a real way. I’m looking for genuine relationships that accept all parts of me, hoping to build a community that values being real and understanding each other.

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I Just Want to Be Me

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I just want to be myself without stressing about what society thinks. In a world where everyone’s trying to fit in and people are quick to judge, being real is super important. This isn't just some passing thought; it’s a real need to stay true to who I am, even when society wants us to blend in. It’s tough to push through these pressures and show our true selves, knowing we might face misunderstandings or criticism.

Being myself means loving all my unique traits, from my quirks to my experiences. My passions and interests are a big part of who I am. Celebrating them honors my journey and everything that’s shaped me. This involves looking back and appreciating the richness of my life and the unique impact I've had.

Figuring out who you really are is freeing but also tough. It means facing insecurities and judgment in a world that can be pretty shallow. Relationships can get tricky when people don’t accept the real you. It takes guts to stay true to yourself when there’s doubt or disapproval. Every interaction tests your resolve and reinforces your self-worth. This journey is about self-acceptance, resilience, vulnerability, and the strength of being genuine.

Being me is all about constant growth and self-discovery. I’m always evolving, learning, and gaining insights. This journey is full of clarity and confusion, joy and struggle, all adding to my unique story. Every experience is a thread in my life’s fabric, showing my resilience and commitment to living authentically.

Being genuine with others means having open conversations and building relationships that truly get me. This balance helps me stay true to myself while supporting those I care about. I want to inspire others to be themselves, creating a community where everyone feels comfortable being real. By sharing my journey, I hope to encourage others on their self-discovery paths, creating a world that celebrates diversity and values each unique story.

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LIKES

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Music
Softball
Playing games on phone
Death
Universe.
People watching
Camping
Mountains
Tattoos

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DISLIKES

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Lima Beans
Loud Noises
Whining

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FEARS

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Ticks
Lice
Fleas
Chiggers
Or anything similar to those spawns from Hell.
Losing my loved ones. Especially my husband and kids.
Bridges
Going too far under any body of water. I know when I think it’s too far.
Having the closet open at night when I’m sleeping.
I used to be scared of the monsters under the bed. Now I’m not because I know those monsters under my bed are my dog and cats.
Driving at night
Driving in pouring rain
Driving in snow
Driving in the mountains
That someone will break in (someone has already tried to once before).
That I will fail at everything I do in life.
That I will never have the kind of family bond I’ve always strived for. Watching all of my children grow up and start families. Being a part of every bit of it. I fear that will not happen.
Even though my son is getting better he still runs his mouth too much. I fear he will say the wrong thing to, or in front of the wrong person, and that’s the end of him. I have seen it happen before.
Flying in planes. I know isn’t it Fed up that a person that loves travel as much as I do is afraid to fly in a plane? I still do it. Xanax and all.

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Why Blog?

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I started this blog to share my thoughts and feelings since I find it tough to talk about them openly, even with my family. Writing gives me a safe space to be honest without worrying about judgment. It's my way of documenting my journey and capturing the highs and lows that shape who I am. This blog is mainly for me, but I hope it resonates with others looking for comfort or insight. While some conversations go unheard, writing helps me find clarity and relief, turning my experiences into meaningful words. If there's something you'd like me to explore, just let me know. I'm open to diving into different topics respectfully.

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The Significance of Writing in History

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Keeping records is super important for civilizations to shape their identities and legacies. Over the years, societies have leaned on written documents to save their knowledge, culture, traditions, and personal stories. Whether it's ancient cave art or the game-changing invention of the printing press in the 15th century, writing has played a key role in sharing ideas and capturing human experiences.

## Why Early Documentation Matters

Writing lets us keep track of important lessons from the past, helping us remember what worked and what didn’t. Through records, we can share cool scientific discoveries, amazing art, and deep philosophical thoughts, making our lives richer. Writing helps define who we are and keeps our culture alive. Whether it's ancient scrolls, Anne Frank's diary, or today’s blog posts, every bit of writing adds to our story, showing how our ideas and beliefs have grown over time.

## Personal Stories and Shared Memories

By sharing my story on this blog, I'm jumping into the age-old tradition of storytelling that links us all, no matter where or when we are. Just like our ancestors who carved their tales into stone or wrote them on parchment, I'm crafting my own story in the vast digital world of the internet. Writing here isn't just about me; it's a way to connect with the bigger human experience. It helps me express my thoughts, look back on my journey, and dive into the complexities of who I am.

## The Story of Human Life

Every blog post adds to the bigger picture of what it means to be human, mixing together our shared truths, fears, hopes, and dreams. It's more than just a personal outlet; it's a way to connect and share what makes us human. Each entry invites readers to dive into my experiences, building a sense of community and empathy in our fast-paced, tech-driven world.

## The Power of Digital Storytelling

By writing, I'm not just sharing my own story—I'm also getting others to think about their own and sparking conversations that help us understand each other better. Plus, with the digital age, storytelling has become way more accessible, letting all sorts of voices be heard like never before. Online, stories from marginalized communities, unique viewpoints, and unusual experiences finally have a place, adding to a richer and more inclusive picture of humanity.

## Embracing Responsibility in Storytelling

By jumping into this conversation, I'm not just keeping the storytelling tradition alive—I'm also taking on the responsibility to highlight voices, share experiences, and create a vibe of understanding and respect. Sharing our stories is super important because it helps shape how we all think together. It lets us learn from each other, connect with different experiences, and work towards a kinder world.

## The Legacy of Our Stories

As I keep writing and sharing my thoughts, I'm always thinking about the legacy I'm helping to build—a legacy that celebrates all the amazing aspects of the human experience and aims to connect us on this shared journey through life. With this ongoing story, I hope to encourage others to start writing too, adding their voices to the mix, so our diverse stories keep being told and treasured for future generations. In this web of stories, we find not just our own truths but also the universal connections that tie us together, showing how each story can deeply impact the human experience as a whole.

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What I Didn’t Start it For

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I didn't start it to gain followers

I started this journey to grow and find myself, not to chase fame or likes. It was all about diving into my thoughts, feelings, and experiences, and keeping track of my personal exploration. Writing felt like therapy, helping me face my emotions and express myself in a real way. It brought out my deepest thoughts and feelings, teaching me to be strong, open, and kind to myself. Sharing these reflections, even with just a few people, helped me feel connected to a community and showed me that others could relate. In the end, this journey is all about staying true to who I am and seeing personal growth as a lifelong adventure, capturing those moments of understanding and fulfillment that go beyond just surface-level success.

I didn't start this to upset anyone

I started this journey to get to know myself better and grow both personally and professionally. By taking the time to think about my life regularly, I want to spot and fix my mistakes, making sure I actually change for the better. Sharing what I go through helps me stay focused and hopefully inspires others to start their own self-improvement paths. Jotting down my thoughts helps me firm up my goals and builds a community that encourages reflection and growth. My main goal is to kickstart positive changes in myself and those around me, promoting a culture of self-awareness and constant improvement.

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What I Did Start it For

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To Lighten my Burden

Over time, I've figured out that people aren't really into hearing complaints because they've got their own stuff going on. I picked this up by watching my relationships and seeing how others handle their emotions. I don't have a tight-knit family, so I mostly lean on my husband. He's great, but there's only so much he can handle. With my kids, I steer clear of certain topics to keep their innocence intact, which sometimes makes me feel a bit on my own.

This realization was a big deal for me. It taught me to respect others' emotional limits and find healthier ways to deal with my feelings. Writing has been a great tool for me to understand my emotions and those of my loved ones better.

Focusing on my own emotional health, instead of looking for validation through complaints, has made me stronger and improved my relationships. This journey has shown me that while connecting through shared experiences is important, building personal strength and independence is just as crucial.

Helping Others in the Same Boat

I want to share my experiences to help those who feel alone in their struggles. Life can be tough, and it’s easy to feel like you’re on your own. But knowing others feel the same can be comforting. I’m aiming to create a welcoming space for connection, open chats, and mutual respect.

I’m looking to build a supportive community where we can swap tips on dealing with life’s ups and downs, focusing on mental health, personal growth, and bouncing back. By talking openly about what we go through, we can break down stigma and loneliness, offering comfort and sparking hope.

By tackling challenges together, we can find effective ways to support each other and take proactive steps, whether that’s trying new coping strategies, seeking professional help, or practicing self-care. Together, we can create a toolkit of resources and support systems. Ultimately, I want to build a community where everyone feels valued and heard, navigating life’s twists and turns with compassion and understanding.

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"To Have Someone to Talk To"

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Chilling in the hot tub with my husband, I was hoping for some meaningful conversation and bonding time. But he was glued to his phone, which left me feeling pretty disconnected. It was like I was invisible, just background noise while he scrolled through social media. Every time I tried to bring up something important, it felt like I was talking to a wall, which was super frustrating and lonely.

I’m feeling pretty isolated since my friends and family aren’t really around to lean on. Without a solid support system, it's tough dealing with everything on my own. I’m looking for a community where I can share my thoughts and be heard, hoping to find some understanding and connection to ease the loneliness. I really want those deep conversations that help build trust and understanding in our relationship.

I’m reaching out to find people who are into thoughtful conversations and can relate to what I’m going through. I want to create a support network where we can be open, share our vulnerabilities, and build empathy. By sharing our stories, I hope to find strength and comfort, diving into our experiences and finding beauty in our shared humanity.

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I Feel a Change Coming

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I can feel a big change coming in my life, that familiar but unsettling vibe of stepping out of my comfort zone. It takes me back to when I ditched a stable government job to dive into nursing school in my mid-thirties, juggling motherhood and dealing with skeptics. That bold leap really matched up with who I am and what I'm passionate about.

I've felt this way during various career changes, like when I became a school nurse, which fit my caring nature and professional skills. I also left the psychiatric field because it was emotionally draining. Moving to the ER was a high-pressure, adrenaline rush, but it eventually became too intense, so I switched things up again.

Now, I feel that shift happening once more, a mix of excitement and nerves. I love my hospice care job, bringing comfort during important times, but I've realized writing is calling me too. I've put off this passion for a while, but I'm ready to dive in and share my stories.

Thinking about all this, I realized not everyone is constantly introspective like me. Chatting with my husband showed me how different our thought processes are, making me wonder if my introspection is a creative gift or just a source of anxiety.

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Maybe I Can Write a Book?

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I always joke about writing a book full of my stories and experiences, each one adding to the puzzle of my life. The idea is super exciting but also a bit daunting because inspiration just hits me out of nowhere, pushing me to capture those fleeting creative moments. My mind is bursting with ideas, and writing about them feels so natural. I’m especially drawn to topics like bipolar disorder, which really deserves a deep dive. Mental health is something I find fascinating and personally important, reflecting my own journey. Sharing these stories with kindness is key to breaking down stigma and building empathy, helping to create a more inclusive world.

I’m pumped about new challenges and opportunities, knowing that growth often comes with a bit of discomfort. The path of self-discovery is pretty complex, but I’m ready to dive in, whether it’s through writing or improving my skills in hospice care. Working in hospice has taught me the incredible power of compassion during tough times, and I’m excited to see how these experiences will shape my growth. The future is unpredictable, like a blank canvas for my experiences and dreams, but I’m all in for embracing change and new possibilities.

Every adventure is a chance to learn and connect with others. I’m really eager to jump into these opportunities, believing my words can help foster understanding and compassion. As I start this new chapter, I’m thrilled to explore my creativity and experiences, excited to see how they play out in the unwritten chapters ahead.

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One at a Time

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When I stick to just one role, I can really dive in and get creative, whether it's for work or personal stuff. This focus helps me accomplish more and makes the whole experience more enjoyable, since I can dig into the details and come up with new ideas without getting sidetracked by multitasking. On the flip side, juggling multiple roles can be a bit overwhelming, as each one takes up time and energy, from work duties to personal stuff. Balancing everything can feel shaky, with all the mental juggling leading to stress and anxiety. Each role has its own set of expectations, and constantly switching gears can be exhausting and affect my well-being.

## Tackling the Tough Stuff

Handling tricky tasks needs a bit of planning. For me, setting clear boundaries is key to managing my time and energy. I make sure to have specific work hours and set aside time for family or personal projects, keeping everything separate. This helps me focus on one thing at a time and be fully present. I also sort tasks by urgency and importance so I can concentrate on what really matters.

Stick around to find out more about me, my experiences, and how I juggle different roles in my personal and professional life. I'll be sharing my tips, like time management hacks, mindfulness, and self-care.

## Tips for Finding Balance

Staying on top of my schedule is key for managing everything I need to do. I love using apps and planners to organize my day, setting specific times for tasks so I don't get overwhelmed. Meditation and mindfulness really help me stay focused. From tough experiences, I've learned it's important to ask for help and stay flexible. Relying on coworkers or family makes things less stressful and often leads to better outcomes. Being adaptable helps me handle life's surprises while keeping things under control.

## Building Resilience

I try to keep things balanced and satisfying, even when life gets crazy, by staying flexible and tough. Being resilient is all about having the mental strength to handle life's ups and downs smoothly. By embracing change and uncertainty, I see challenges as chances to grow and learn.

Looking back on these experiences, I want to show how many of us juggle life's demands and the resilience needed to thrive. My journey isn't just about managing tasks but also about finding joy in the process and adjusting to life's unpredictability. Every experience, whether tough or rewarding, adds to my growth and helps me understand what a balanced and fulfilling life is all about.

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Things I hope people get out of this

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Feeling Good About Yourself

It's super important to know your worth and the unique role you play in the world. Everyone's got their own special qualities, talents, and strengths that make life interesting. These things shape who we are and affect how we connect with others and handle life's ups and downs. Feeling good about yourself is key for growing as a person and bouncing back from tough times. It helps you feel confident in your relationships, job, and goals.

When you understand your own value, you also start to appreciate the variety in people around you. Knowing your strengths makes it easier to appreciate what others bring to the table, creating a sense of community and belonging. Remember, true self-worth comes from inside, not from what others think of you.

Think about the experiences that have shaped how you see yourself, like getting through tough situations or building strong relationships. These moments help you understand your value better, making you more resilient and positive. No matter what happens, your worth stays the same.

Figuring out your value is a personal journey that takes some reflection and self-kindness. Embrace this journey to change how you see yourself and how you interact with the world. By recognizing your worth, you empower yourself and inspire those around you, making the world a better place for everyone.

Knowledge

I’m here to share my journey and some cool insights and lessons I’ve picked up along the way. Every challenge and win has shaped my perspective. Sharing our experiences helps us grow and connect with others. Reflecting on key moments, I've gained wisdom that might help others on similar paths. From dealing with doubt to finding clarity, each experience teaches us about resilience and determination. By sharing, I hope to spark conversations and teamwork, helping us grow personally and create a more connected world.

A Different Perspective

Life's a mix of experiences, beliefs, and viewpoints, making it both complex and beautiful. I'm sharing my thoughts to get you thinking about your own experiences and to be open to new perspectives. My ups and downs have shaped how I see human interaction and emotions. Talking about these can help you find new paths or confirm what you already believe. Being resilient and adaptable is key when facing challenges, and my stories of overcoming obstacles might inspire you to tackle your own with curiosity.

My perspective is just one of many, adding to our shared human experience. I hope you connect with my reflections and stay open to others' viewpoints, as they help broaden our minds and boost empathy.

By sharing my viewpoint, I want to spark conversation and connection. Life gets richer through interactions, helping us find common ground. I invite you to share your thoughts too, as exchanges lead to insights and a deeper appreciation for life's complexity. I want to create a space to explore different perspectives, enriching our understanding of the world and each other, fostering growth and deeper connections. I hope my reflections encourage you to think critically and embrace life's mosaic with an open heart and mind.

Knowing You Aren’t Alone

Feeling connected and being part of a community is super important, especially now when everything's getting busier and sometimes a bit lonely. When we connect with people who get what we're going through, it feels comforting and helps us realize we're not alone. Sharing our stories not only makes things clearer for us but also encourages others to open up, which builds vulnerability and empathy. This leads to stronger relationships and support networks, making life a little easier. Every story adds to a shared tapestry that benefits everyone. Through my stories, I hope you find comfort and solidarity, offering a little relief during tough times and hope for brighter days. Remember, being connected and part of a community helps us tackle challenges, reminding us we're all in this together. Together, we can create a culture of support, understanding, and love, making sure no one has to face tough times alone.

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Anything in Common?

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Diving into different topics, whether in chats, writing, or just thinking, can really boost your grasp of life and the world by giving you fresh insights and a mix of perspectives.

Mom life: It's all about love, sacrifice, and growing as a person, from sleepless nights to swapping parenting tips with other moms.
Wife life: It's about teamwork and partnership, dealing with changes in your relationship, keeping the communication going, and staying true to yourself.
Nurse life: It's dedicated to caring, handling long shifts and emotional ups and downs while making a difference in patients' lives.
Religion: It's about exploring faith and spirituality, looking into different religions, their cultural and ethical sides, and various belief systems.
Science: It's all about discovering the world, using the scientific method and critical thinking, and seeing its impact on society.
Psychology/sociology: It's about studying how people behave and how societies work, boosting empathy and understanding mental health and social norms.
History: It gives insights into past events and cultures, helping us understand current issues and spot patterns that repeat.
Astronomy: It's all about exploring space, stars, and galaxies, making us think about our place in the universe.
Theories/hypotheses: It's about encouraging critical thinking and exploring ideas across different fields, focusing on evidence and being open to change.
Past experiences: They offer insights into personal growth and resilience, shaping who we are and guiding our choices.
Life lessons learned: They highlight the wisdom we gain from experiences, encouraging reflection and sharing to inspire others.
Advice: It's all about how personal advice can be, urging you to think it over and make your own choices.
Different perspectives: They boost understanding and empathy by considering various viewpoints and making discussions more interesting.
Devil's advocate moments: They encourage looking at alternative viewpoints, deepening understanding and refining beliefs.
Random musings: They celebrate spontaneous thoughts and creativity, offering inspiration or just a good laugh.

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Little-Known Facts About Me

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Shapes All Around

I've always been into making shapes out of random stuff, especially in nature. Clouds have been my thing since I was a kid. I used to just watch them morph into different shapes, each one telling its own little story. Just the other day, I saw a cloud change from looking like an octopus tentacle to an angry Patrick from SpongeBob, and then into a melting monster. But it's not just clouds—I also spot shapes in the foam when I'm cleaning my mouth guard, the froth on my cappuccino, and even hair strands on the shower wall. Before I joined the military, I spent a lot of time chilling with my boyfriend and his brothers, making awesome memories. I have this habit of not rinsing hair down the drain to avoid clogs. One time, my boyfriend noticed hair on the shower wall, and we ended up having a fun back-and-forth with hair messages until it got old.

If Only I Had the Voice

When I was a kid, I always dreamed of being a famous singer. I’d host karaoke sessions with my friends, totally convinced I had the talent. During a cruise with my ex-husband, while my in-laws watched the kids, I seized every chance to go to karaoke night, blissfully unaware that I wasn’t exactly amazing. I even auditioned for a talent show, performing Britney Spears' "Oops... I Did It Again" with some makeshift backup dancers and a Britney-style wig. Watching the recording later was pretty cringe-worthy, and I promised myself I'd never do public karaoke again. Now, I stick to singing in the shower and those I trust. Other performers were amazing at imitating celebrities, which made my funny performance stand out and taught me to know my own limits.

Childhood Yucky Habits

Sometimes, I find myself doing the awkward nose-pick. If you catch me in the act, just look away and mind your own business. Occasionally, there's a stubborn piece that just has to go, and if picking is the only way, my finger's going up there. It's a natural thing that many don't talk about, but it's part of being human with all our little quirks. I try to be sneaky about it, but sometimes the urge is just too strong. In those moments, I’m torn between wanting to be comfortable and sticking to the social rules about what's okay in public. It's one of those funny little things we all do but don’t admit. So, if you see me doing it, know it’s just a quick fix, not a reflection of who I am.

And yes, I always have hand sanitizer with me.

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Lists

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People in History that I Admire

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Musicians - I like A LOT of musicians, these are just my top

Anberlin
Hanson
Asking Alexandria
Bring me the Horizon
Of Mice and Men
Architects
Bob Marley
Boyz 2 Men
Brooks & Dunn
Bryan Adam
Ed Sheeran
The Early November
Elton John
Eminem
Green Day
I the Mighty
John Michael Montgomery
Journey
Mariah Carey
Memphis May Fire
Michael Jackson
My American Heart
New Kids on the Block - best live show EVER!!!
Randy Travis
Reba McEntire
Something Corporate
Staind
Taylor Swift
Three Days Grace
Breaking Benjamin
Toby Keith
Alan Jackson
Kenny Chesney
Garth Brooks
Tim McGraw
The Used
Linkin Park

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Actors/Actresses

Robin Williams ~ #1
Heath Ledger
Julia Stiles
Julia Roberts
Morgan Freeman
Reese Witherspoon
Nicole Kidman
Jack Black
Zoey Deschanel
Jennifer Lawrence
Anne Hathaway
Sandra Bullock
Johnny Depp
Ryan Reynolds
Will Smith
Matthew McConaughey
Chris Hemsworth
Ian Hemsworth
Dwayne Johnson
Tom Hiddleston
Leonardo DiCaprio
Tom Hanks
Meg Ryan
Melissa McCarthy
Anna Kendrick
Bradley Cooper
Denzel Washington
Jack Nicholson
Emma Watson
Kate Winslet
Diane Keeton
Judy Garland
Angela Bassett
Julie Andrew’s
Kathy Bates
Adam Sandler
Emma Stone (though I heard she isn’t a nice person, that makes me sad if that’s true.)
Katherine Heigl (I heard she wasn’t nice either 😭)